Disclaimer: Profanity in use. Do not continue if you are fainthearted or easily offended!!
To the bitch it may concern,
I can’t think of anyone more wicked. How could you adopt some kids just to abuse them? Did it ever occur to you that you were too fucked up to be a mother? You couldn’t even be a mother to your own son, yeah Michael. You ditched him and left him with his abusive father. You ran off to Texas to fuck with a new man. How the fuck could you leave him?
You shamed my sisters and me about our bodies. We fasted and exercised daily. You never shut the fuck up about how we were too heavy. We get it, your fat ass was skinny three decades ago. We get it, you didn’t get fat until you had Michael. They should really do psyche evaluations before letting just anybody adopt. Your ass was crazy for real. You just wanted some servants to clean your big house. You never wanted any of us to go to college, because who the fuck would clean your big house.
You got rid of my big sister when she was 16. She was not ready for the cold world. You’re the reason she turned into a drug addict. Guess it wasn’t hard to get rid of someone who wasn’t your kid. You were never satisfied with anything I ever did. I would bring home A’s just to hear they should have been 100’s. Who were you to ever judge? Your ass could barely read or write, let alone do math. When were you on the honor roll? When did you ever in your life receive an award? Yeah, never.
You were just a bitter old bitch who projected all her insecurities onto some innocent kids. All you did was put me back into the system. Who knew the system even allowed that type of shit? No surprises here though. You kind of have a pattern of giving up on your kids. But that’s right, I’m not your actual kid. Go fuck yourself. I feel sorry for any nursing home that has to deal with you.
Sincerely,
Not your daughter
Dear Bitch,
I always thought that maybe you were just a product of your own parents. They made you mean. They abused you and ran you off into the arms of your abuser. He got you so young he was able to trap you. You had to run away from him, into the arms of another abuser, and another abuser, until you finally got away and found peace. But by then it was too late for you. Maybe so many bad things happened to you that it made you angry inside. Your life didn’t turn out how you imagined it would, so it made you bitter. I always tried to see things from your point of view. Therapy teaches you how to reflect. It could have really helped you.
I wish you would’ve educated yourself on different body types. We had bigger frames because we carried extra muscle, we had athletes’ bodies. Everyone in my family has curves. There’s no way we could have ever been shaped like you, looked like you. We should have never been body shamed, even if being 100 pounds was still a trend. It wasn’t right to hurt a child’s self-esteem. It hurt so much constantly being criticized. I was just a young child trying to make my mom proud. Eventually I stopped trying. You can’t love somebody that can’t love their self.
I deserved to have been loved. My sisters deserved to have been loved. Being a mom now, I couldn’t imagine abandoning my son. I’ll never be able to understand how you could give up on your kids. You hurt me worse than my biological parents. You chose us. You had the choice to adopt us, to adopt me. You chose to be my new mom just so you could throw me away. I’ll never forgive you for that. I don’t have anything else to say to you. You don’t deserve it.
Goodbye,
A Total Stranger
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Oh wow, sorry that happened to you! What was her reasoning to adopt in the first place? That’s terrible. No one should ever have to feel this way. I totally agree when you said, ” They should really do psyche evaluations before letting just anybody adopt.”
Everyone deserves to be loved. Now that you have a son you can show him the proper way to be loved so he never has to feel the way you did. I never understand why some people act the way they do. It cant always be because they are a product of their upbringing because you have shown you changed that and will not be that way to your son.
I also wrote a hate letter for my blog assignment. I so badly would like to give it to the person it was intended to, lol. Wouldnt you? But I guess that would make us sink to their level so we will just take the higher ground and share what they have done with our entire English class. haha!
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There’s some things in this life we will never quite understand. Especially when it’s something so messed up. You’ll just drive yourself crazy trying to understand the mind of a psycho. Sometimes it’s better to just let it go. I plan to give my son so much love that he’ll never have to wonder. And yeah screw it lol. We will bring this English class to tears!!
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Wow, your story was real. The words you used, the darkness of it made me, as an audience member, feel your pain, and that is amazing as a writer. I feel that you are an extremely strong person for being able to share this with everyone, it’s wonderful that you can share this with us. It’s always good to get things off your chest and show others your story. Although it doesn’t define you, it shapes you into who you are and become. I thought it was great that you incorporated your son. That tells me that you learned from your childhood experiences that what you went through was wrong and completely inappropriate. It’s amazing that you can take your experiences and make your son’s a whole different one. You can give him and amazing life full of love. I know how it feels having parents that expect a lot from you. Too be fair, mine wasn’t as hard but I can still relate to some extent. He pressured me to be perfect, and still does. I was always a good student, involved in sports, had good groups of friends,cleaned the house and prepared meals at a young age without him even asking, and never got into any trouble my entire life, but I always felt that I was never good enough. It was at it’s worst when my parents got divorced with me going into my freshman year of highschool. When they separated, my dad automatically expected me to take over the “mom” role, and I did. I can understand how it must feel to have all that pressure, and I wish you the best. Something to always remember is everything happens for a reason, and if you hadn’t gone through these things, your perspective on life would be completely different. You may not be as strong and independent as you are, and some things happen for the better.
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Thank you. It has made me who I am. It still hurts but I’ve learned to live with it. Sorry you had so much pressure on you growing up. It may not be the same story as mine but that doesn’t make it hurt any less. It’s never right to make a child grow up before they’re supposed to and it’s not ok to make them feel like they’re not good enough for you. You’re supposed to build your children up, guide them, and love them. You shouldn’t beat them down physically, mentally, or emotionally. Everything happens for a reason.
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Moments of Awesomeness — Katrina — This was tough, but I’m going with this one. You did a really nice job making that rhetorical shift here, which had to be difficult. Look at those two letters! They address the same issues, but they do so VERY differently, and that difference makes this a particularly effective post.
Next time — You’re rockin’ the blogs. Just keep pushing. I REALLY want, before the semester is over, to see what happens when you push yourself way outside your comfort zone. You’re comfortable with a lot, so what does it look like for you to get really risky???
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